Day 32 @ 155.6

:( I don't know what my problem is this week but I just can't stop cheating! It's so crazy! But I was thinking today and actually I think I'm going to start my period next week! Blah! Usually the week before I start I can not control my eating and I'm lazy and don't want to exercise or do anything... and that's what I'm doing. And if it's not because of my period then I don't know what's wrong and it probably won't get better! The other thing that may be the problem is that I haven't been that busy at work with the economy the way it is, so that leaves a lot more time for me to be bored and therefore I think about food! It's horrible! I have a real problem! I just love food! So any encouragement would be great! I only have about 1 1/2 weeks left which isn't long enough for me to lose 5 more pounds especially if I start my period. So I've completely lost hope and I am pretty sad. But the good side is that I have lost 15 pounds and I need to remember that and be happy for that! So Yeah I lost 15 pounds in 4 weeks! That's amazing!

Day 30 @ 155.0

So yesterday I tried to eat good all day and I did for the most part except I had macaroni and cheese! The good part is that I didn't gain anything like the last couple of days... I lost .6 pounds which is so awesome! I am also having an apple day today so that I can get a jump start to my week! I did really bad over the weekend, as is mentioned in my other posts. This weekend I cheated and I ate till I was completely full and sick! That's not such a good idea! But that's what's bad about unhealthy food... you are never satisfied! I've realized that healthy food is satisfying and it makes you feel so good... especially if you're trying to lose weight and you actually are dropping pounds by the week! So I am going to recommit and do the best I can so that hopefully I will be in the 140's next week!

Day 28 @ 155.4

Yes I did gain just under a pound but that was to be expected. Today I had an apple day... which really isn't that bad! But by the end of the day... apples aren't that great tasting. I haven't gotten sick of them yet but I'm sure in the next couple of weeks I will be. So I did pretty good with the apples and then dinner time came around and I had this random craving for Quiznos. I didn't even see a commercial or picture or anything... it seriously just popped up in my head and so I told my husband and then he wanted to go so it's technically not my fault... actually I have the choice not to eat it but I did and honestly I feel great! I need to not get so down and depressed about myself. It's okay to enjoy food every once in a while like this instance. Usually I would eat stuff like that at every single meal and that was my problem. My other problem is weekends... so if I do really good during the week, which I usually do, then I don't feel so bad to go out to eat once or twice! We'll see how tomorrow goes. Usually when I eat bad food then the next couple of days are hard for me not to be hungry in between meals!

Day 27 @ 154.6

Today was a hard day for me. Like I've mentioned before... weekends are so hard for me. For a long time, especially with my husband, weekends are our time to go out and eat so I'm just in the habit. All day today I have felt hungry in between meals and really tired so I felt like a big fatty meal to make me feel better... not! I totally over ate! But this is the first... okay second time in almost 5 weeks that I've over ate! So not too bad for me! I'm actually really proud of myself! I'd rather do that than crash all of a sudden and never get back on track! So I went out to eat tonight, I'll have an apple day tomorrow, and then Sunday I'll hop right on to my diet! Hopefully I don't gain too much... but I do expect to gain a pound from tonight! For the future I think that if I have one meal a week to eat whatever, then I need to eat the right portion size and not over eat and get so stuffed that I don't feel good... for example... tonight! So I told my husband to please remind me to not order as much food as I did and just get something a little smaller! That's the whole point of this diet is taking control of what you eat and how much to eat! Although I'm not doing it exactly... I am getting a lot better than where I was before!

Day 26 @ 155.6

Yeah I'm at 155! It is so good to see that number! Well today has been a great day! It's just one of those days where you feel good in your clothes, your hair turned out right, and I got plenty of compliments which I am so grateful for.I pretty much ate the same thing as last time but because of my workout schedule I thought I'd drink a protein shake! So here's my menu for the day:

Breakfast: Protein Shake
Snack, Lunch, Snack, & Dinner: 1/2 apple, chicken tender, handful of grape tomatoes

Pretty boring I know. Someone brought in cookies at work but I resisted. It's really hard to resist delicious cookies but the more I resist the easier it gets. For me food is such an emotional thing. If I can't have a cookie and everyone else around me is enjoying them, I seriously get angry and really sad inside but like I said earlier, it is getting easier. A couple of weeks ago a friend told me at work: "The first bite is the easiest to resist" And it's so true. That phrase has helped me alot to get through tough times. I'm not saying it's easy but it helps! Well until tomorrow... goodnight!

Day 25 @ 156.4

So I only lost .2 pounds today :( I was hoping a little more because I ate so good yesterday! Monday I cheated and the next day I lost a pound! So it's kinda confusing and depressing but whatever! I still have about 2 1/2 weeks left on this phase so hopefully I'll make it into the 140's but if not I'll be happy! So for today I ate similar to yesterday but a little different! Here's the menu:

Breakfast: Tea, chicken tender
Snack: 1/2 apple, 1/2 chicken tender, grape tomatoes
Lunch: 3 strawberries, chicken tender, a few radishes
Snack: Tea, 1/2 apple, 1/2 chicken tender, grape tomatoes
Dinner: 3 strawberries, chicken tender, a few radishes

So pretty boring but easy. The radishes are a little hard for me to eat, one is good but more than one is pretty strong. I am still a little hungry in between meals but overall it's pretty good and standable!

Day 24 @ 156.6

So today I started the Dr. Simeons protocol and it's not as hard as I thought it would be! It's actually easier because you don't eat that much food and there's only so many things that you can eat so it's easy to prepare. I'm still a little hungry in between meals but that's normal when you start any diet! So far so good and I didn't have any jellybeans today! I tried to look at others blogs and get an idea of what people eat and I didn't have much luck! Even on Dr. Simeons website I didn't really find anything. So to help others out in the future this is what I ate:

Breakfast: Tea (Good Earth, Sweet and Spicy... really yummy) w/ little bit of stevia, a chicken tender, and 1/4 apple
Snack: 1/2 apple and 1/2 chicken tender
Lunch: Chicken tender and 1/2 apple, handful of grape tomatoes
Snack: 1/2 chicken tender, 1/4 apple, handful of grape tomatoes
Dinner: Chicken Tender, 1/2 apple, handful of grape tomatoes

Usually a couple hours later after dinner I get really hungry so last night right before bed I had another cup of tea! It was amazing! I wasn't hungry and it really relaxed me therefore I slept really good last night! You should try it! I felt so good that I told my husband that he needs to do that before bed! It's just really soothing!

Okay so it looks like I pretty much ate the same thing for every meal just different portions. I don't know if I should do that or if I should switch it up! May be tomorrow I'll have an orange instead of two apples and eat a different vegetable! But we'll see!